I am You
I am one of you. Not an expert in human resource, not a manager writing about his hiring decisions, not a book author who has years of research about how companies will hire you.
I am jobless. I buy the Sunday paper just for the employment ads (although the coupons are helpful as well). I know how it feels on this side. On the plus side, I can stay on my pajamas all day, eat anytime I want, do whatever hits my fancy that day, blog or surf the net all day. But then bill paying time comes and my chest pounds, my intestines hurt, I start fidgeting as I check my online bank and watch whatever savings I have dwindle. The refrigerator is close to empty. I have to put 3 water bottles in my empty freezer because SDGE said it will save me some energy cost. I lower the water heater to cool and I’m not sure how long I can keep it that way in the winter. I buy only food, things that will cost me less than ten cents per ounce. I make sure that shampoo bottle, that toothpaste tube, that laundry detergent is totally, absolutely, fully empty before throwing them away.
If you have a spouse or a significant other that can help you float for a month or two, that is great! But you probably have kids to support and a mortgage to pay, so your stomach still churns daily. If you’re young and single and don’t want to move back in with your parents or bum food from your friends, it’s still not so bad because you can survive with less food, fewer things to pay for. But you do want to keep paying for your car, so there’s churning in your belly as well. But then if you’re like me, a single parent of two kids, with mortgage and an ex-husband in hiding to avoid paying child support, it starts looking really scary and your stomach doesn’t just churn, your whole inside may occasionally feel like it’s going through an epileptic convulsion.
But whatever situation you’re in, I know how it feels. It's not easy being jobless. It is frustrating, infuriating, sometimes maddening. It is depressing, confidence-slamming, saddening. But we will make it through this phase of our lives. I may answer to the name “jobless’ right now, but I know I am more than that. I have years of experience, education, and professional development. I can do anything, be anything. I will survive this. I will be calm. I will breathe each day and search for a job. I will not think too far ahead and worry. A day at a time, I will keep telling myself. I will sit in front of my computer each day and at the end of each, I will have sent out one or two resume or job applications. I don’t know what will be of them, what the response time will be. All I know is that today, I have made it through.
I am jobless. I buy the Sunday paper just for the employment ads (although the coupons are helpful as well). I know how it feels on this side. On the plus side, I can stay on my pajamas all day, eat anytime I want, do whatever hits my fancy that day, blog or surf the net all day. But then bill paying time comes and my chest pounds, my intestines hurt, I start fidgeting as I check my online bank and watch whatever savings I have dwindle. The refrigerator is close to empty. I have to put 3 water bottles in my empty freezer because SDGE said it will save me some energy cost. I lower the water heater to cool and I’m not sure how long I can keep it that way in the winter. I buy only food, things that will cost me less than ten cents per ounce. I make sure that shampoo bottle, that toothpaste tube, that laundry detergent is totally, absolutely, fully empty before throwing them away.
If you have a spouse or a significant other that can help you float for a month or two, that is great! But you probably have kids to support and a mortgage to pay, so your stomach still churns daily. If you’re young and single and don’t want to move back in with your parents or bum food from your friends, it’s still not so bad because you can survive with less food, fewer things to pay for. But you do want to keep paying for your car, so there’s churning in your belly as well. But then if you’re like me, a single parent of two kids, with mortgage and an ex-husband in hiding to avoid paying child support, it starts looking really scary and your stomach doesn’t just churn, your whole inside may occasionally feel like it’s going through an epileptic convulsion.
But whatever situation you’re in, I know how it feels. It's not easy being jobless. It is frustrating, infuriating, sometimes maddening. It is depressing, confidence-slamming, saddening. But we will make it through this phase of our lives. I may answer to the name “jobless’ right now, but I know I am more than that. I have years of experience, education, and professional development. I can do anything, be anything. I will survive this. I will be calm. I will breathe each day and search for a job. I will not think too far ahead and worry. A day at a time, I will keep telling myself. I will sit in front of my computer each day and at the end of each, I will have sent out one or two resume or job applications. I don’t know what will be of them, what the response time will be. All I know is that today, I have made it through.
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